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There's something up with me this week. It's like my sanity is a spring and it's snapped. I don't mean I'm going crazy but I feel like I'm sinking into depression or anxiety. I was imagining that huang lao shi told us to memorise jia chi jia ju but then of course she didn't. And when I go on facebook and read the comments made by other people, I'm in an overly excited mood. I mean that was why I blocked a certain person but now I added that person again. I think I should go and block the person again.
I think it's all because of PSLE. I mean we have to wait an
ENTIRE WHOLE MONTH for the results. With nothing substantial to do. I've tried to occupy my time with meaningful things but at the back of my head is that horrible thought of PSLE. I think I'm loosing it.
And the worse part of it all is that I know this anxiety is all an illusion. I know that if I wanted to, I could snap out of it all and be cheerful.
I think what I need is a change. First of all, I need to forget about that person and stop thinking about that person. I mean, I won't see that person ever again and that person is just a passer-by in my life. Yup, I need to work things out with my emotions.
Regarding the PSLE thing, I will convince myself that I've done all I could and whatever mark I get is what I get. AND other people will get lower than me. Like-. I'm not going to mention them. HAHAHA!
Ok, CALM DOWN AND GO AND DRAW. Yes, that's what I'll do.
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